Tuesday, August 28, 2018
A Post from 1 Month before Retirement
I wasn't necessarily looking for this post, but I came across it the other day. It's from one month before I hung it up at work. Nowadays I can take a nap if I get tired and I'm not trying to do it all. I forget how fricking tired I was all the time:
Lately I've been so fucking tired. It's getting fucking ridiculous. Berenson tested my thyroid and testosterone which both can be impacted by long term steroids and chemo. Both tested fine. I started pomalyst when I started darzalex and we've lowered the dose twice because it was tiring me out. But I've been on the low dose one meg for a few months and it's only in the past month or two that the overwhelming sleepiness has hit me. It's pissing me off. Thank goodness I only have a month more of work. Afternoon are getting real challenging. This weekend, I don't even know how much I slept, but it was a lot. My myeloma numbers are great, so I'm thinking this could be the result of 6 non stop years of treatment. I'm feeling like an old man. I'm losing muscle mass, getting flabby and super cranky all the time. Plus my eyes are getting worse, hearing is on a decline, my ability to focus on one thing sucks and I continue to bruise and bleed with the tiniest little bump or scratch. I'll tell you what, this myeloma is no joke. It's the gift that keeps on giving.
2.47 latest creatinine 3 years on darzalex/pom 8.5 years since diagnosis 3 hours drive time to Berenson's office 60 total miles roun...