Monday, February 23, 2015
Lack of Focus
Focus. I've been able to focus for nearly four years. I've gotten good at thinking about work when I'm at work and not thinking about my health routine. But it really is getting more difficult. Tomorrow is chemo and I'm already thinking about how I'm going to feel the rest of the week. Weds I'll be jacked up, on fire, super productive. Thursday and Friday, I'll be tired, grumpy, not feeling right. That's all I'm thinking about right now...how I'm going to feel. The key with this here myeloma is balance. Balance between thinking about today versus thinking about the near and long term future.
After I was diagnosed in 2011 with multiple myeloma, I was in and out of the hospital with fevers and/or severe anemia. I fucking HATED the ...