Welcome to 2013. I didn't take any time off from work during the holidays. But today really feels like I'm back after a vacation. Time to get back to work and refocused on the job at hand.
I've said this before though, I think. It's getting hard to do the hum drum stuff. For much of the past year, just coming to work was sufficient. It was my connection to the real world and my escape from cancer. But I've been full time for a few months and the meaning of my job is getting lost. Generally I like what I'm doing. But, and here's that word again, the passion isn't there. The functioning of the port is meaning less and less to me. Forecasts, projections, memos, meetings....blah.
Today is January 2. 20 months since my diagnosis. Wow, that is crazy. I feel great, getting back into shape, kidneys improving, cancer being kept at bay. All positives. I've got a puffy face and expanding jowls from the steroids. I bruise easily and bleed like a dickens from any small little cut. But, I'll tell you what, I'm so damn lucky to be where I am at with this. The plan for 2013 is to keep it going. Get better, get fitter, get my head screwed on even straighter, and all that. No specific resolutions. Just goals. I must learn to play an instrument this year. I must write my screenplays. I must spend more time in and around water. I must get back on my bike. I must continue being honest with myself and other people. I must continue to appreciate every day. I must not get hung up on what ifs.
This week I have maintenance chemo. Pretty easy at this point. Friday we see the kidney doctor. The goal is to get some relaxation on the diet restrictions. I'd love to have a banana or marinara sauce on pasta or some nuts. That's not asking too much is it? Saturday I'll get some acupuncture and also Saturday is the key thing....Vikings playoffs. A rematch against the Packers. Remember to wear your purple this Friday!!!
One last thing, I wouldn't mind seeing this blog get input and thoughts from other myeloma or cancer survivors. I.e. guest writers are welcome. A post here, a post there might be cool.