Wednesday, April 27, 2016


It's been a little bit since I gave my update. In concise bullet format, here you go:

  • Yesterday I wrapped up cycle 19 of maintenance. Rev, dex, velcade.
  • Cycle 19 was delayed about a month because I had back to back illnesses. The fear is always pneumonia, so we did chest xrays, delayed chemo and added a couple of inhalers and antibiotics to the mix. Everything is clear.
  • While sick, my myeloma numbers jumped up enough to worry us. We were basically a flip of the coin away from changing my chemo regimen. Consensus among me, Leslie, Phan and Berenson was to stick with maintenance. Follow up laps showed my numbers heading back down. Labs this week will be very telling.
  • I finally feel perfect after two months of being sick. 
  • I do myeloma labs later this week, see Berenson May 9.
  • I'm working out and training hard. I weigh about 190, need to get to 180 by summer to be in beast mode for serious Kilimanjaro training.
  • I've raised over $3,000 for the Kilimanjaro climb. There are some real generous folks out there. The minimum goal is $10,000, but I'd love to blaze past that number. Here is the link if you're interested in reading about the climb or would like to donate.
  • If you prefer writing checks, you can send these to me and follow these instructions: Checks should be made out to MMRF. Be sure to include the name of the event and the team member name on the check so that your donation will be recorded correctly. (for example:   Matt Goldman. 2017 Kilimanjaro).  Please note that all donors who pay by check will always receive a thank you letter documenting the tax deductible contribution for any donation over $25.  My address is Matt Goldman 2137 N Studebaker Rd, Long Beach, CA 90815
  • Unfortunately I have surgery scheduled May 17. This is a repeat of surgery  I had in summer 2014. That was the most painful and horrible experience in my five years of being a patient. My challenged immune system means that shit, that has been quiet and dormant in my system for years or decades, has a chance to flourish. Thus I get viral warts in my lower region that require surgical removal. They are not nearly as bad as they were in 2014, so we (I) am hoping for less pain and a speedier recovery.
  • Once I recover from the surgery, Kilimanjaro training is on. No fucking around!
  • I cut beef and pork from my diet about a year ago or so. It has to do with both health and animal cruelty. I've always loved animals, but that love never translated to what I ate. In the past few years, I just can't imagine eating animals. After reading about how chickens are treated an abused, chicken is now out of my diet. Today is day 1.
  • The challenge is that my kidneys are still jacked, so I need to watch what I eat. Beans, nuts and soy are basically off limits. So that limits a bit where I can get my daily protein. A friend of my mom mentioned satin, a plant based protein, that we have to research. I need foods low in potassium and phosphorus.
  • I'm increasing my water intake. I got a bit lax. Water intake is super important for flushing those kidneys and keeping the creatinine down.
  • May 2 is my five year date from my diagnosis.  In the words of Joe Biden "That's a big fucking deal".  I've thought a lot about life and death. Five years is serving as my spring board to embracing life. I can't dilly dally. Must be a doer.
  • Also, please, I don't mind people asking how I am doing or even for details. Depending on who you are, you may get the stock answer "I'm ok" answer. But if you want more detail, go ahead and ask. The myeloma shit is a freaking challenge 24/7. But I'm ok with all of it.
  • Also along the lines of asking me how I am doing, I don't need sorrys. As I said, I've reached an agreement point with the cancer. I ignore it. It ignores me.
  • Also, and here is where it gets to a tricky gray area. I also don't want a complete lack of acknowledgement. Texts and emails saying hi and checking in are always appreciated.
  • Meanwhile life goes on. I still work. Last month, Leslie's dad was in the hospital. He's good now. Recently my Uncle Jan had a heart attack and quintuple bypass. He's at home recovering and doing well. Life is a lot. But we're doing it.

Wednesday, April 20, 2016

We'll Miss You Max

This past weekend we celebrated my mom's 80th birthday. She is an amazing, talented and energetic person. Her energy and drive is something we all should strive for, no matter our age. But it was a bittersweet visit, I said goodbye to Max, who's been with my mom for 17 years. He was a happy, loving, sweet pup. I and we are truly going to miss him. He went to doggie heaven yesterday. Bye Max.

After Cancer Diagnosis, This Woman Saw the Seven Wonders of the World in 13 Days

While I sit in my cube day after day after, working, fighting fatigue, wondering about the meaning of life, some people use their cancer diagnosis to whole heartedly embrace life and adventures.

Here is one such story:

Wednesday, April 13, 2016

Channel Your Inner Tiger

Charlie Sheen made Tiger Blood a thing. It's your inner tiger.  I've actually tried to adopt it. You can't fuck with a tiger.

Anyhow, thought I'd share something that I found entertaining and helpful.

Monday, April 11, 2016

An Honor for Bradstrong

It's been about 9 months since my friend Brad Coustan passed away from myeloma. It remains a shocking and devastating loss. Even now, when I feel myself losing motivation to stay strong and healthy, I think about Brad and what he'd say or do.  Last night I had a little talk with myself. I told myself to work harder and to not let this challenge get to me. Brad was a powerful force and stopped at nothing to be a good person, husband, father and myeloma fighter.

This past weekend, his community honored him by dedicating the scoreboard to Brad at the local baseball field. Here is the article on the event.

Wednesday, April 6, 2016

International Myeloma Foundation Webinar

In one week on Wednesday, April 13th at 7:00 PM EST the IMF will be holding a webinar titled “NIH Funding: How It Benefits You as a Patient”. This webinar will focus on the importance of advocating for research funding at the National Institutes of Health (NIH), and how certain programs, such as grants for young, emerging researchers and funding for clinical trials, impact myeloma patients. We will have corresponding engagements available so patients can contact their legislators and ask them to support NIH funding.

Register Here

You're in my Chair

It's 3 AM as I write this. Earlier today I had my monthly darzalex infusion.  Five hours. The first 4 go by swiftly. I get a large benad...